Who needs meds??

I am weaning off my meds. Not because I choose to, there is a shortage of supply. The solution – cut my dose until it’s over.

Problem- this is supposed to go for a couple months and I have 2 weeks left.

Plan – wean off them as I try a natural approach. Lions mane is first to try.

So far I’m three days in and I’m ok except when I think of him. I am staying off Facebook , hid all the pictures of us together and taking a different route to work so I don’t pass his work.

So far I am good except tonight I miss him despite all those efforts. I am torn between not letting myself ever think of him and letting myself feel it for a few minutes a day. Part of me hopes he will miss me and reach out. Last conversation I apologized again and said I miss him in my life. How can I gain his trust again.

Today I made a video of the last time I saw him. …